Ok. I admit. I'm lazy. I hardly post anymore. Everytime I sit in front of my laptop, I end up surfing ridiculous sites and playing games. And I haven got a job yet. Haiz..missed lots of job opportunities over some stupid reasons. But shall not post it and make me angry with myself all over again. Can't get any admin jobs, which I want cos its different from my previous jobs. Have to settle for a telemarketing job instead. The pay's alright. Jia Hwee's helping me get in, hope I can cos its been like a week since my vacation and I've been totally slacking. Supposed to go to school for some test results briefing later on, but I'm going for movies instead. Oh ya, and the library if I have time. I'm seriously caught up in Judith Mcnaught's books recently. Yi Ting recommended "Paradise" to me and after that book I keep having serious cravings for her books. I told that to Y.C yesterday, and shit her. She's so...lame haha! her reply was "Haha! didn't noe you hungry for books..i have some vege here i give you...so poor thing...need to eat books...lol" haha.

Going back to my secondary school to visit my teachers for teachers' day tomorrow. But doubt I'll be let into the hall to watch the performances. The last time I went back, I wasn't allowed in cos of my tinted hair and dressing which, in my opinion, is stupid and unnecessary. We arent even their students anymore, just back to visit some teachers, and they have no right to restrict our dressing. Haiz..will try to wear something more appropriate (not that my dressing is inappropriate) tomorrow but there's nothing I can do about my hair.

Read an old friend's blog just now. Don't really read people's blogs but Jh told me something so shocking, I had to verify it myself. Well, turned out this friend of mine is a lesbian and her girlfriend is my ex-junior. Kinda guessed it long time ago, but still I'm shocked when they open up and admit. But kinda happy for them as well..they seem really sweet and they finally admitted(= Must have took alot of courage. But I prefer people who admit their homosexuality. I mean, there's nothing embarrassing or wrong about it. But I guess most people try to conceal it cos of the lots of people out there who are not willing to accept them. Its like a cycle, people always do or don't do things not cos they want or don't want, but cos of what other people accept or think. And what these other people accept or think are actually influenced by what other people accept or think. Ok, this is getting complicating. But my main point is, I find it really sad that most people, including me, live in the light of other people's eyes. We live doing things to make ourselves accepted, and we live not doing things that would make us an outcast. Haiz..I digress. I'm straying away from my original topic. This is a shortcoming I've recently come to realize I have. I always want to tell someone something but I end up telling him or her other things that was not of my original intention, especially when I'm with xh haha.

Did I ever mention I'm a total idiot? If no, well here it goes "I'm a complete idiot." I saw this advertisement on the net just now, looking for a shop assistant. And I sent my resume and personal information to the email address included there. After sending, I looked through the advertisement again. And guess what I saw..the advertisement was posted in year 2004! wdh! I'm such an idiot. Argh.

Phew, this entry's kinda long. Considering my laziness, its a kinda accomplishment for me haha.